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09 June 2006 @ 03:49 pm
Does anyone know where I could find a graphic of a keyhole for a friends only banner?

[edit: I saw one on someone's journal here that I'd like to use but I can't remember where I saw it or who made it.]

04 March 2006 @ 11:37 am
I would like to give away an Avenged Sevenfold tshirt I have to someone on livejournal. I got it online from this Shirts for a Cure program where certain bands sponsor them for curing breast cancer.

I only ask for $5 to cover shipping. Its sized a youth medium I believe and in near to perfect condition because I hardly wore it.

View it here
I can get an actual photo of it if youd like as well.

The shirt goes to whoever claims it first.

And if no one is interested, I'll go to an a7x community.
03 November 2005 @ 09:41 pm
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Friends Only.
+Leave a comment,
-Maybe I'll add you.
How I'm Feeling as of Late: accomplishedaccomplished
What I'm Listening to as of Late: Opeth||Credence
05 October 2005 @ 09:51 pm
Read this. Seriously, read it. Immerse yourself in it. Think about what it's saying. It has so many meanings and references.

Get started.

Marilyn Manson

Dear god do you want to tear your knuckles down
and hold yourself

Dear god can you climb up that tree
meat in the shape of a 'T'

Dear god the paper says you were the King
in the black limousine

Dear John and all the King's men
can't put you head together again

Before the bullets
before the flies
before authorities take out my eyes
the only smiling are you dolls that I made
but you are plastic and so are your brains

Dear god the sky is as blue
as a gunshot wound

Dear god if you were alive
then I would kill you.

Before the bullets
before the flies
before authorities take out my eyes
the only smiling are you dolls that I made
but you are plastic and so are your brains
How I'm Feeling as of Late: pessimisticpessimistic
What I'm Listening to as of Late: Godeatgod by manson.
01 October 2005 @ 11:59 am
just a little thing.

can you guys finish this?

k thanks.
How I'm Feeling as of Late: coldcold
What I'm Listening to as of Late: Chokehold [Cocked n Loaded] / Children of Bodom
13 September 2005 @ 02:02 pm
Step 1: Get your playlist together, put it on random, and play
Step 2: Pick your favorite lines from the first 25 songs that play
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song the lines come from
Step 4: Cross out the songs when someone guesses correctly
1. I'm not the girl that stopped and stared. I'm not the girl that lied. Your mouth is like funeral where kisses go to die. Jack Off Jill - Clear Hearts, Grey Flowers
2. I had the whole world in my hands - and I gave it away. UnderOATH - Down, Set, Go
3. You must now face authority. You're nothing like me. Put you hands up, get out of the car. System of a Down - Mr. Jack
4. High above your shadow smiles at me. Way down below I hear you serenely breathe. Children of Bodom - Kissing the Shadows
5. Hear the screams from the Mourning Palace. Feel the doom of haunting chants.
6. This is the art of ruin. This is the resolution. The end of all progress. The death of evolution. It bleeds all life away. I will show you all that I have mastered. Fear. Pain. Hatred. Power.
7. Watch me fault her. You're living like a disaster. She said kill me faster. With strawberry gashes all over. Jack Off Jill - Strawberry Gashes
8. I'm gonna buy this place and watch it fall. Stand here beside me baby in the crumbling walls. Coldplay - A Rush of Blood to the Head
9. Fall fall fall fall, into the walls. Jump jump out of time. Fall fall fall fall, out of the sky. Cover my face as the animals die.
10. The word "america" means "freedom" - as in, "free to kill the free..." Anti-Flag - Stars and Stripes
11. Morningstar, oh shine onto the visage of mine. Cast a warm light. Rammstein - Morgenstern
12. Living in their cage, living in their cage. They are killing me. But I don't look back. While I'm waiting to die. I don't look back. In a weird lullaby. Lacuna Coil - When A Dead Man Walks
13. Turn green meadows into grey. Can you feel the winter waiting? Ice-cold rivers turn to blue. Can you see the jewel shining? Misseri - Leaves' Eyes
14. "Each thing I show you is a piece of my death". Shoot shoot shoot motherfucker. No salvation, no forgiveness. "This is beyond your experience". Forgiveness... Marilyn Manson - The Reflecting God
15. Watch how it runs, watch how it burns. And it's all a deception. Break it and learn, there's no return. For a presence like mine. Soilwork - Nerve
16. Pale touch, writhing in the embers. Damp mud burning in my eyes. All the faces turned away. And all would sneer at my demise.
17. Smell the burning embers, time flickering away. Timeless but soon gone, timeless but soon gone. And I can find myself alone with just my thoughts. As time crumbles away.
18. Another night, another demise. Cadaverous wind blowing cold as ice...I`ll let the wind blow out the light, 'cause its gets more painful every time I die. Children of Bodom - Everytime I Die
19. I have no right to let it go. I have no right to do so.
20. Make a joke and I will sigh and you will laugh and I will cry. Happiness I cannot feel and love to me is so unreal. Black Sabbath - Paranoid
21. How quickly I forget.....that this is meaningless.
22. I haven’t slept since I woke up. And found my whole life was a lie, motherfucker. This is the end of everything. You are the end of everything. Slipknot - Everything Ends
23. Oh Vivica I wish you well. I'll sit right here I'll never tell. No tender scar no twist of fate will save you now. Jack Off Jill - Vivica
24. Lost love, of the heart. In a Holocaust scene memory.
25. Tender lumplings everywhere, life's no fun without a good scare. That's our job, but we're not mean. In our town of halloween. Nightmare Before Christmas - This is Halloween

so, yes, i am a little late in doing this but i felt like it today.

i'll give you a clue, one of them is translated from german.

ps. check out my new icon!!! i made it from thisCollapse )

gee, my cropping skills are just THAT high.
How I'm Feeling as of Late: accomplishedaccomplished
What I'm Listening to as of Late: Raining Blood by Slayer
05 September 2005 @ 10:13 am
do you SEEEEEEEE this?

OPETH's upcoming North American tour dates:

Oct. 09 - Tempe, AZ @ Marquee Theatre
Oct. 10 - West Hollywood, CA @ House of Blues
Oct. 11 - San Francisco, CA @ The Fillmore
Oct. 14 - Vancouver, BC @ Commodore Ballroom
Oct. 15 - Seattle, WA @ El Corazon
Oct. 17 - Salt Lake City, UT @ Lo-Fi Cafe
Oct. 18 - Denver, CO @ Ogden Theatre
Oct. 20 - Dallas, TX @ Trees
Oct. 21 - Houston, TX @ Meridian
Oct. 22 - San Antonio, TX @ White Rabbit
Oct. 24 - Lawrence, KS @ The Bottleneck
Oct. 25 - St. Louis, MO @ Pop's
Oct. 26 - Chicago, IL @ House of Blues
Oct. 27 - Detroit, MI @ Harpo's
Oct. 28 - Toronto, ON @ The Opera House

Oct. 30 - Worcester, MA @ The Palladium
Nov. 04 - Buffalo, NY @ Showplace Theatre
Nov. 05 - Springfield, VA @ Jaxx
Nov. 06 - Cleveland, OH @ House of Blues
Nov. 07 - Winston-Salem, NC @ Ziggy's
Nov. 08 - Atlanta, GA @ Coca-Cola Roxy Theatre
Nov. 09 - Lake Buena Vista, FL @ House of Blues
Nov. 11 - Fort Lauderdale, FL @ Culture Room



on a completely different note, Johnny X_x is sick. so we took him to the apple store yesterday so he could be cured. he only has a slight bug, where he pauses uncontrollably. but the poor thing, hes all naked and vunerable. i miss him. there hasnt been a single night that i havent been with him since the day i bought him, save yesterday. it was so sad. oh, i miss him so. i mean, think about him, all aloooone. and exposed so that anyone can see him. poor, poor Johnny X_x.

i cant wait until hes recovered. which will be in a few days. BUT ITS KILLING ME.
How I'm Feeling as of Late: mixed feelings....
What I'm Listening to as of Late: beneath the mire/-/opeth
29 August 2005 @ 12:44 pm
I can't believe this.


It's gone. And I didn't get to read all of the last comments. And, the comments I left for everyone are gone. Like I never existed.

And, even if I make a new one, how can I get all my friends back? It's not like I wrote them all down somewhere or something.

How I'm Feeling as of Late: pissed off as fuck.
21 December 2004 @ 09:20 pm
This is probably the most beautiful thing i have ever read in my life. the song is so indescribly beautiful, liek i cant even explain. i listened to it over and over today, its in the middle of this 14 minute track on the end of the Sing The Sorrow cd by AFI, and its like three diferent people say it. its not really a song but like an interlude with music kind of. but i decided i HAVE to post the lyrics here so everyone can read them who wants to. think about what its saying. its so beautiful, i think im going to die overwhelmed of the beauty of it.

We held hands on the last night on earth. Our mouths filled with dust, we kissed in the fields and under trees, screaming like dogs, bleeding dark into the leaves. It was empty on the edge of town but we knew everyone floated along the bottom of the river. So we walked through the waste where the road curved into the sea and the shattered seasons lay, and the bitter smell of burning was on you like a disease. In our cancer of passion you said, "Death is a midnight runner."
The sky had come crashing down like the news of an intimate suicide. We picked up the shards and formed them into stars that wore like an antique wedding dress. The echoes of the past broke the hearts of the unborn as the ferris wheel silently slowed to a stop. The few insects skittered away in hopes of a better pastime. I kissed you at the apex of the maelstrom and asked if you would accompany me in a quick fall, but you made me realize that my ticket wasn't good for two. I rode alone.
You said, "The cinders are falling like snow." There is poetry in despair, and we sang with unrivaled beauty, bitter elegies of savagery and eloquence. Of blue and grey. Strange, we ran down desperate streets and carved our names in the flesh of the city. The sun has stagnated somewhere beyond the rim of the horizon and the darkness is a mystery of curves and lines. Still, we lay under the emptiness and drifted slowly outward, and somewhere in the wilderness we found salvation scratched into the earth like a message.

How I'm Feeling as of Late: indescribableindescribable
What I'm Listening to as of Late: Untitled Track on Sing the Sorrow by AFI

» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:


» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:

» Family:

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you adore me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

Sorry, i dont know why im even bothering to post this in here. its just a waste of time seeing as hardly anyone reads this. but whatever.

just dont listen to me anymore. not like you did.

oh never fucking mind.

fuck this.


and yeah, i htink im going to put this journal to friends only soon, so if you dont have an lj account of you arent my friend make one so i can add you or something. bu whatever it doesnt matter. im still htinking abuot it. or maybe ill just delete this fucking piece of shit altogether i hate it so much.
How I'm Feeling as of Late: aggravatedaggravated
What I'm Listening to as of Late: Follow Through by Lilitu
07 December 2004 @ 03:35 am
Little bunny foo foo
You are most like Nail Bunny.

Which Johnny the Homicidal Maniac (Comic Book #1) character are you? (Results contain pictures!) TAKE IT>RATE IT!
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How I'm Feeling as of Late: touchedtouched
What I'm Listening to as of Late: The Red by Chevelle
30 November 2004 @ 04:32 am
Take the quiz: "What Band Are You? (Good Bands)"

Avenged Sevenfold (A7x)
Yes! My favorite band A7x kicks ass! Take the quiz: "Which guitarist from a harcore band are you?"

Zacky Veanganse from Avenged Sevenfold
Your favorite color is black, you have awsome riffs and you are in a band called Avenged Sevenfold. alright, i have been taking this Is Love Generator test for the past half hour. i cant help it, its just so freaky how every time i take it i get an answer that is me. so i had to post all my results. teehee...sorry it got a little bit obsessive....but i couldnt help it :-p
jeordie white is love
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a fire inside is love
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davey havok is love
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jade puget is love
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claudio sanchez is love
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kirk hammet is love
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mario kart double dash is love
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amelia atwater rhodes are love
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soundgarden is love
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bagly is love
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gwen stephani is love
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writing in my journal is love
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synester gates are love
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shadows fall is love
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godsmack is love
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poetry is love
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led zeppelin is love
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chevelle is love
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okay, thats it for now, ill be back later and ill try it some more. shut up. i thought it was already clear that i dont have a life.
How I'm Feeling as of Late: amazed
What I'm Listening to as of Late: The Ballad of Evermore by Led Zeppelin
20 November 2004 @ 11:52 am

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How I'm Feeling as of Late: happyhappy
What I'm Listening to as of Late: ALL AFI TODAY
20 November 2004 @ 11:39 am
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HAPPY 29TH BIRTHDAY DAVEY HAVOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

we will always love you and be with you until the day you die and even when you are dead we will always be with you

thank you for everything davey

i love you sooooo much
How I'm Feeling as of Late: hyperhyper
What I'm Listening to as of Late: EVERYTHING AFI
27 October 2004 @ 09:03 pm
somehow i ended up here in between
where there is always the comfort
of knowing ill never be seen
when i fall
when i fall
ill wait for just one touch
and ill fall
weightless, endless, faithless
ill adore you
--Wester by AFI 2:06
How I'm Feeling as of Late: contemplativecontemplative
What I'm Listening to as of Late: Wester by AFI
26 October 2004 @ 09:24 pm
hey everyone,
so its my first post since summer i guess. but screw this, i dont want to tell everything to be updated, youll just have to assume its all good since then.....NOT.
im starting to really get annoyed by crls. its like idont know the socialness of it all is so overwhelming.....its lke, i dont know now that im on the crew team i know all these people and stuff, but supposedly we're all tight. but, i always feel like im on the outside its like no matter how much im talkign with everyone and stuff im excluded. and i know that if i talked abuot this to anyone they wold disagree but its true. its like i just cant seem to be "with the crowd". and at lunch, we always seem to bunch up, and like today lucy was like paulina why dont u talk to adam? and i was like well....i dont knwo what to say..i dont have anythign to say to him....and then she all calls him over and makes me look like a total idiot, and then adams probably lthinking like what the fuck htis is the second time shes had something to say but never said it! and, yeah.......i dont know lucy sometimes annoys me how she put me on the spot like that......i never have anyting intelligent to say to adam....and hes so cool and i want to talk to him but i cant seem to get past the hey, hey, whats up, nothing, u, ad stuff like that.....its pathetic. i have SUCH social problems. and like, whenever im with corina nad lucy i feel left out because theyre so wicked tight, so im all like yeah.....and, ugh. its just so confusing and hard. and todays out last week of crew and stuff, and im almost glad but im also sad too. im happy because like, then i have my afternoons back but it also kinda sucks cuz some of the ppl i never see out side of crew......theres this dance thingie thats coming up on satuday for halloween but before it, and everyones going and they keep askng me, but, do i dance?!? pfft, i dont htink so. and, will i be included? hell no. so why should i bother? but why do i find myself still wanting to go? marina really wants me to come but im not sure, and knowing my parents they want to know every single detail about it i can find, they were actually like do u no if theres a website about it? i mean comeon, must they know EVERYTHING?!? i went over to french gabes house a while back and they wanted to know his last nae, his address, and a phone # where i could be contacted. i want a cellie so bad. naturally. but my parents refuse to be into civilization.
my aunt finally mailed me her guitar so i can have it on extended loan, its really pretty, its like red with a white pickguard.....i love it so much! and i can play two things: the hardest button by white stripes, and stairway to heaven, the ending, the part at 6:45 of the song (thats how much i love thepart....how pathetc is that? lol) and....another one bites the dust. all form twhat my dad taught me. andi learned it in all of two days. im so glad it gives me an excuse to stop taking piano lessons, im SO sick of it.....actually i just hate practicing.....but yeah. i mean i have been playing for SIX years.....anyhow, yeah the guitar rocks i wish it was MINE to keep, but thats okay.
i have to go now, for dinner.
hopefully ill start to post more often.
not like anyone ever reads these anyways.
but ohwell, it helps for me to write down all this.
much love
How I'm Feeling as of Late: disappointeddisappointed
What I'm Listening to as of Late: Personal Jesus by Marilyn Manson
im back from vacation in Moose/Mosquito land, aka maine. it was pretty nice there, my family borrowed my aunt and uncles beach house. i was the least tan out of everyone, of course. i hardly tan because im so pale. but i like being pale. i cant say why....its just.....yeah. we were at this ice cream place there and they had the worlds largest chocolate moose. its in the guiness book supposedly. it was cute, although it made me sick looking at it. so much chocolate. geez. and it was cool cuz at the house they had a scale, and at my house here we dont have one...so i could weigh myself whenever i wanted, i mean...not like i wanted to or anything......okay nevermind. i hardly swam there. i just get sick of the water easily. i just hung in the house and wrote poetry or read. i read like 4 books, and i started the basic eight by daniel handler today. see kirby, i told you i would read it! its really good so far. and the sad thing is that the main character reminds me of kirby. so much. because she majorly obsesses over this guy.....sounds familiar? LOL.

i feel bad because there were a bunch of people i didnt tell i was leaving, so theyre probably all like where is she?!? and stuff. although, come to think of it i dont htink any of them missed me. oh well.

im really lacking what to say here. we went cd shopping while we were there of course, and i got three cds! *jumps around* YAY! i got the afi cd called black sails in the sunet. its pretty old, but its before the two other afis i have. i got the static - x its their first cd called machine. i love wayne static! hes so awesome. heres a picture of him, just for the record.
and i bought CKY's infiltrate destroy rebuild. its really good.

okay i have to go get dressed.

oh and i bought new shoes! hehe theyre black with a bklue stripe. vans. i luv em!

okay see you all later

How I'm Feeling as of Late: bouncybouncy
What I'm Listening to as of Late: Clove Smoke Catharsis by AFI
22 August 2004 @ 06:59 pm
I have this feeling...this very big idea....that...well...you guys....you just wouldnt miss me. no matter how much you try to comfort me, or whatever, you dont care about me. no one even reads this anymore. they never did actually, and so im just gonan forget about it altogether probably.....i guess....well maybe not. on xanga i had friends, and we all commented and read eachothers all the time. it was ALL good. except it wasnt REALLY because..i was majorly depressed, and they were helping me from not killing myself or whatever...or not hurting myself...or...yeah. we were constantly making people feel better, or.,...just our existence was enough. but here, its like im talking to myself. no one cares. no one cares at all. im just doing this to clear my mind i guess.

not that its helping. but whatever. nothign matters anymore. thats right. NOTHING F*CKING MATTERS. life is shit.
How I'm Feeling as of Late: contemplativecontemplative
What I'm Listening to as of Late: Bodies by Drowning Pool
a new post!
I figured i should post something here, so heres 2 of my drawings i scanned recently. theyre based from the cd, art of drowning by AFI. get it. its awesome. hehe.

http://tinypic.com/1xdmp here is the actual cd cover.

http://tinypic.com/1xddx this drawing is of the statue on the cover. i had serious issues with the lettering, i didnt want to put it it. but i needed to so i could draw that wing. the space between her head and the I is too big..but i did as best i could.

http://tinypic.com/1xda1 this is a drawing just inspired form the overall style of the booklet, fire, with a gate, and a spirit/demon thing rising above.

hope you like!

god, ive gotta post more often, this is PATHETIC!

How I'm Feeling as of Late: relaxedrelaxed
What I'm Listening to as of Late: Morningstar by AFI
17 July 2004 @ 02:30 pm
Silver and Cold pic
You are the Music Video: Silver and Cold
Yoiu are thoroughly depressed. Something has got
you terribly upset and you cant think of
anything else to do but kill yourself... In
this case, it was by jumping off a bridge. You
are so consumed by it you forget about your
friends and how much this is hurting them. Your
friends will always stand by you- remember that
and the feeling will pass.
Your lyrics:
I...I came here by day, but I left here in darkness
And found you, found you on the way
And now, it is silver and silent, it is silver and
You, in somber resplendence, I hold

Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one
Your sins into me
oh As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a
And I'll beg for forgiveness
(Your sins into me) Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one

Light, like the flutter of wings, feel your hollow
voice rushing into me
As you're longing to sing
So I..I will paint you in silver, I will wrap you
in cold
I will lift up your voices as I sink

Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one, now
Your sins into me
oh As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a
And I'll beg for forgiveness
(Your sins into me) Your sins into me

Cold in life's throws, I'll fall asleep for you
Cold in life's throws, I only ask you turn away
Cold in life's throws, I'll fall asleep for you
Cold in life's throws, I only ask you turn
As they seep... into me, oh, my beautiful one, now

Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one
Your sins into me
oh As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a
And I'll beg for forgiveness
(Your sins into me)
Your sins into me... oh

Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one, now
Your sins into me
As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a
And I'll beg for forgiveness
(Your sins into me) Your sins into...
(Your sins into me) Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one

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How I'm Feeling as of Late: depresseddepressed
What I'm Listening to as of Late: ...But Home Is Nowhere by AFI
13 July 2004 @ 10:57 am
Im filling this out quick before i have to get ready for my shrink visit, im so mad i have to go at all. i hate the place and the lady i have to talk to pisses me off.
ill write about it later, when im back i guess.


Height?:5 feet 6 inches
Weight?:you reallly think i would say that? well, im less than 110, but im more then 95.
Hair?:light brownish blondish kinda
Eyes?:light blue
School?:prison. or, cambridgeport school. although next year its cambridge rindge and latin high school...
Band?:*sigh* kittie, jack off jill, afi, evanescence, linkin park, nirvana, avenged sevenfold.....and more.......
Singer?:amy lee
Food?:chocolate!!!!!!! sugar!!!
Color?:black, red and white
TV Show?:friends
Movie?:lord of the rings....still...
Kind of music?:hard rock. (dont you love it, kirby?)
Friend? And why?:and it matters?
Place to be?:right here. aka the comp keyboard
Alcoholic drink?:root BEER. arent i funny? lol
Video game?:mario kart double dash, super mario sunshine, and ....yeah.
{Do you..}
Drink?:nope. prolly will someday tho
Smoke?:nope. ditto.
Do drugs?:ditto
Think you're gothic?:i prefer not to classify myself like that.
Think you're punk?:ditto
Think you're popular?:yeah right!
Have sex?:umm....well there was that one time...jk
Have a boyfriend?:you would know if i did
Have a girlfriend?:hell no
Sing?:along the the stuff i listen to, but not publicly...
Dance?:hell no
Party?:not really
Have peircings?:on each ear. i wanna get a lot on my ears tho, and i also want one on my eyebrow...
Have tattoos?:i wish
Want tattoos?:kinda
If so, what and where?:a dragon, and..im still deciding....
Want peircings?:i already sorta said i do...
What and where?:read the thing
Cut yourself?:i did. a few times on my palm.
Bite others?:nope.
Have any scars?:from the cut theres a very faint one but thats all.
If so, from what?:FROM THE CUT
Enjoy taking surverys?:this ones too long and repetetive
If not, why are you taking this one?:im bored
Enjoy being alone?:yes, but sometimes it drives me crazy
Consider yourself to be happy?:far from it
Consider yourself to be depressed?:very much so
Want to have kids?:never
How long has your longest relationship lasted?::(
Do you think you've been in love?:yes
How many times?:3 i think
Do you think you're in love right now?:yes
Have a crush on someone?:well, duh
Who?:you dont need to know...and half of u ppl dont know him anyways
Do you want to get married?:nope
How long do you think it'll be until you do?:i said NO
If you haven't had sex, do you plan on waiting till you're married?:im not gonna be married....
If you have, did you want to wait?:whatever
Why or why not?:ditto
Do you think it's wrong to date someone five years older than you?:nope but thats the max i would do
Why or why not?:because i said so!
Ever been kissed?:parents? sister? yes. otherwise, no
Ever make out with someone?::(
Have you ever had sex?:have they said this enough times? are they trying to rub it in?
Did you regret it?:
How old were you?:they are making me feel bad now...
{In the future}
What do you want to do for a living?:i dont really care.
Where do you want to live?:in an apartment by myself
Why?:because i feel like it
Do you plan on going to college?:yes
Which college?:havent thought about it yet.....sorry....
If you want children, how many?:i dont
If you have a boyfriend or girlfriend, could you see yourself with them?:*sigh*
Most annoying?:umm......they wouldnt be my friend then
Best friend?:dont have one
Hottest?:hmm.... maybe........i would have to say.....mark. thats just a guess. but i think yyou probably are.
Most shy?:obviously kirby.....
Most out going?:emma
Biggest drinker?:dunno
Biggest druggie?:dunno
Oldest?:we're all close in age....
Most popular?:whitney
Meanest?:youre all nice
Nicest?:elizabeth and gloriann
{This or that}
Coke or pepsi?:coke all the way
Vanilla or Chocolate?:chcolate. hell yeah
Online journal or real journal?:both!!
Day or night?:night
Large groups or small groups?:small
Lots of friends or one really good friend?:lots
X-box or PS2?:GAMECUBE!!
Really intelligent or really hot?:in between
The phone or computer?:comp
Movies or music?:music, with a little movies
Online or in reality?:online
Long distance relationship or close by?:mostly close but a few online. its good to have both
Nice or smart?:nice
Blue or red?:red
Black or white?:black
What time is it?:10:56
How long did it take you to do this?:like 10 minutes maybe
Where are you going to post this?:my livejournal
What are you going to do when you're done?:get ready for my shrink appointment...... *cries*

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How I'm Feeling as of Late: pissed offpissed off
What I'm Listening to as of Late: When I Am Queen by Jack Off Jill
Today my sister had to go off to camp, so my mom and her left around 7 in the morning. i slept though it, and because its a weekday my dad left for work. i got to wake up whenever i wanted, and i could practicly do whatever i wanted, for like 4 hours....although i didnt. i got really bored, so i went over to kirbys at like one. i just got home from her house now.

i only PLANNED to stay until like 3 or so...but now its 9. i helped make dinner and i ate over there....it was fun but her parents can be a bit embarassing, as she admits.......but i mean she thinks hers are SO SO SO embarassing. but thats what everyone thinks, right? but i dont know.

it shuold be nice without mae here for 5 days! i only wish she would be gone a full week, but oh well...

i just got the static x cd, shadow zone. its really good, and im in love with this song called "so". and also i just downloaded a bunch of jack off jill and kittie today. im trying out these bands with female singers. kittie's singer sings really well because she can really like growl and yell. i never knew females were even capable of that...makes me think i might have a chance....but i dont know.

i am going to put a bunch of links to a bunch of good songs now.

When I Am Queen - Jack Off Jill

Paperdoll - Kittie

more later, maybe...

How I'm Feeling as of Late: fullfull
What I'm Listening to as of Late: Paperdoll by Kittie
Take the quiz IF YOU DARE!
01. who are you, what's our relationship:
02. how and where did we meet:
03. what's my middle name:
04. how long have you known me:
05. tell me one good thing about myself:
06. when you first saw me what was your impression:
07. my age:
08. birthday:
09. my favorite band at the moment:
10. colour eyes:
11. do i have any siblings:
12. have you ever had a crush on me:
13. what's one of my favorite things to do:
14. do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you:
15. describe me in 3 words:
16. name 5 things i love:
17. do you think i'm good looking(be honest):
18. how would you describe me to someone:
19. would you ever date me:
20. tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21: what do you like most about me:
22: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
23: have we ever gotten in a fight:
24: do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
26. What do you think my weakness is?
27. Do you think I'll get married?
28. What makes me happy?
29. What makes me sad?
30. What reminds you of me?
31. If you could give me anything what would it be?
32. When's the last time you saw me?
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
35. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
39. Would you make a move on me?
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?
41. If you could change one thing about our relationship past present and future what would it be?
How I'm Feeling as of Late: touchedtouched
What I'm Listening to as of Late: So by Static-x
I just finished this book called Die Softly. in it, there was this girl who got murdered, but they staged it as a accident . then, everyone blamed each other, one got shot and died, one got pushed off a cliff, and the main character got stuck with this girl. they were going to make out, but then she tied him up, and she duct taped his mouth shut. she put this poisoned cocaine under his nose, so that if he didnt inhale it he would die. actually he would die either way. there was only one person left in the end, the real murderer, the girl. i havent ever read a book where the main characters ALL die. it was sad. but it was good too.

maes 12th birthday is on saturday, the 10th. should be interesting.....i wonder what kinda cake there will be?

you know what sucks about ljs, are that you cant put music on it. on xanga you could have a thing playing on your site. it was awesome.

i was sick yesterday morning. i woke up and had a headache. a bad one. then i threw up, SIX TIMES!! i had no idea i was capable of that. i havent done that ever. it wasnt cool at all.

well, ill write SOMETHING Interesting, sometime.....

oh! i know! i shall post a poem! YAY!! this one is one of my best. oh and in case some peeps didnt know, i write a lot of poetry. yeah.

My Breakdown
Like glass
Torn like paper
In water
This is what I’ve become
Disappearing in the abyss
Must be a sickness
Drained of my energy
One with the enemy
Frozen in my step
Laying in the black
My past coming back
No one remembers
Everything forgotten
The future unknown
I must obey my mind
I don’t want to listen
Reminiscent of the beginning
I try to fight back
My bones grow weak
I cannot stop
My brain will not release the shock
Caged like a bird
Dead behind the bars
Mind is racing
Thoughts a blur
Head swirling
I want it to stop
Breaking down I will not fall
Screams echo through my head
Memories remain unread
A rush of adrenaline in my veins
Pain races through my soul
Anger rises in my chest
Guilt will not hide the lies
I’m a demon in your eyes

i hope you like it.


ps mark- where are you today?!? you didnt sign on..... it made me sad.....
How I'm Feeling as of Late: moodymoody
What I'm Listening to as of Late: Toxicity by System of a Down
My sister Mae has been away on vacation on Long Island with her friend for a lot of this week. i dont really like to admit it, but i miss her. its just so weird being by myself in this house with my parents. i guess thats how only childs must always feel. i wouldnt be able to live like that. i need someone close to my age in the house. but she'll be back soon.

i went to the mall today with my parents. not like theres anything against that, but inside my mind i kept realizing how im at the age where i should be going to the mall a lot. with my friends. but i never do that. its depressing. i dont e ven like shopping, and how wrong is that? girls my age should love shopping.....(Whitney, i know you wont read this, but im just telling you this anyways. i boght an independent sweatshirt at pacsun, like the one you have. its black and says independent on the front in grey. but its a different font, and it has the little thing on the sleeve, and a big one on the side. its different enough from yours. i hope you dont mind, all the same.)

i guess im just weird. thats what it comes down to. not like thats anything new....lol
im not your average teenage girl.

STAIND IS OFFICIALLY THE COOLEST BAND EVER. at the moment at least. for me. i bought the cd dysfunction by them on ebay today. $5.50. the starting bid was like $1.00. and there was like no shipping....im happy now. :-D

im going to go see mean girls tonight. with my parents. yet again. *sigh*

How I'm Feeling as of Late: blankblank
What I'm Listening to as of Late: For You by Staind